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LaVida by Sparrow69, literature

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LaVida

I've been walking through the ruins of my life and times Seems like everything is sinking right in front of my eyes I've been askin all the questions but nothing's comin back Now I'm trying to keep myself from slippin through the cracks Where is my faith How did I get this far Who do I blame when it all falls apart Maybe the moon's just a hole in the sky One day at a time my world is shattering Maybe the answer is to never ask why as I watch my life unravelling I don't know who to turn to and I wonder who's a friend Out of everyone I touch I can't connect 'til the end I'm runnin out of reaons for puttin up a fight No

I Found the Reason Why by Sparrow69, literature

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I Found the Reason Why

I woke up that morning and I knew something had changed. I was confused, I looked the same, everyone around me was the same, but I felt different for some reason. That whole day I went throught the motions. I didn't let on to anyone about what was going on with me. I thought about everything that whole day. About the people I loved, about the ones that loved me, my house, my room, just everything. All of it kept replaying in my mind over and over again and I couldn't stop thinking no matter how hard I tried. I could'nt undersstand wny I felt like this. Someone kept calling me all day. Everytime I saw their name

Prologue by Sparrow69, literature

Literature

Prologue

I still remember how things used to be. I remember how he was there from the beginning. Seriously, like he was there the day I was born. We grew up together. He was my very best friend just as much as I was his. I remember how he was always so sure of us, of me. The boy never so even as much as looked at another girl! Even as children we were inseparable. What started as an innocent friendship grew as we ourselves grew, into something deeper and wonderful than just friendship. We fell in love... Thinking about it reminds me of the first time he ever told me he loved me. I was seven and he was nine and we were walking to the beac

Gone by Sparrow69, literature

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Gone

7 days since you left and still I haven't cried I can't I want to I won't I've tried nothing comes out I can't feel any emotion I won't let myself 7 days since you left this earth since you left me left us It shouldn't have happened why you? I asked myself that question everyday for the past 3 months! anyone but you!, I thought 7 days since I have felt anything 7 days since you have felt anything... but you will never feel again because you are dead...

Drowning in the Sun by Sparrow69, literature

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Drowning in the Sun

Somewhere there's a sea that has no other side Somewhere there's an airplane lost beyond the sky So fly us up above the clouds Live your life where you are now In the darkness 'round the sun there's light behind your eyes When you've lost the will to run you can feel it start to shine When the rain falls down so hard and you don't know where to start Drowning in the sun Somewhere someone thinks they've found the perfect love And you think you've found the answer to all of this So hang on and make a wish I'll be your perfect kiss In the darkness round the sun there's light behind your eyes When you've lost the will to r

White Lie by Sparrow69, literature

Literature

White Lie

I drift away to a place Another kind of life Take away the pain I create my paradise Everything I've held has hit the wall What used to be yours isn't yours at all Falling apart in all that I'm asking is this a crime? am I overreacting? He's under my skin Just give me something to get rid of him Give me a reason not to bury this alive Another little white lie So what you had didn't fit among the pretty things Never fear, Never fear I no know where you've been Braids have been untied as ribbons fall away Leave the consequence My tears you'll taste Falling apart in all that I question is this a dream? or is this my les

Infection by Sparrow69, literature

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Infection

you took away everything you took away everyone you isolated me from those i love and those who love me you said that you loved me you don't love anyone you scorned me made me feel guilty for living my life you are a virus i loved you i defended you i believed you i cried for you cared for you would have dont anything for you i bled for you crimson tears rolling off my skin i died for you you are a lie you starved me of love and emotion you made me hate myself made me disgrace myself made me surrender myself you made me cold you drove me to hospitalization you blocked me from the world you

I Still Love You by Sparrow69, literature

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I Still Love You

If we walk away now there's no turning around Gotta say what I need, while you're here with me... I'm not sure I'll find words to cover the hurt that I see in your eyes... But I gotta try I know rocks turn to sand and hearts can change hands... And you're not to blame when the sky fills with rain But if we stay or walk away there's one thing that's true... I still love you... Can you search down inside? Let go of your pride? Forget trying to win and just let me in... I didn't travel this far to watch it all fall apart So give me your hand and take a chance... I know rocks turn to sand and hearts can change hands... A

Cold Caress by Sparrow69, literature

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Cold Caress

Snow falls on the city white on white Its the color of hope on an unforgiving night You kissed me into ruins sin on sin Now I'e got to love your love letters written on my skin I can't tell the stars from the downtown light If I said I was truly over you my heart would say Amen But I give in to the cold caress of 2 a.m. If I admit I can't get used to this will my heart break again As I fall into the waiting arms of 2 a.m. Someone's scratchy music through the walls Sirens weaving through the streets so must have missed your call I'm gathering up these nights black on black I know your voice like its my own and it makes my h

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Chills by Sparrow69, literature

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Chills

Chills blood lots of blood the world is blood in my veins on my hands so much blood so warm so cold i feelo so cold my fingers are going numb my head is killing me can't remember where i am who am i with? i remember can't tell won't tell don't ask too many questions i love them i hate them feel so cold i can feel myself slipping into unconsiousness the pain is amazing horrible im shaking im crying can't cry won't cry i smile instead my heart hurts i fell my heart its so cold i want to give in so badly everyday is a fight fight for survival i hate being chased its never going to stop i know this might as

Trust by Sparrow69, literature

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Trust

I wish I could tell you everything I want so much for us to be as close as possible How can I though? If I know that you will be scared... I won't risk it. I care about you too much. If I lost you it would be worse than last time. I loved him. But with you its different. I wish I could change things... Would you really want me to change how I am though? You say that you will always love me no matter what. I feel the same. I don't know what you've been keeping from me. I don't even know why you would talk to someone who loves me almost as much as you do. I trust you both but I just wish that you would be honest with me. If I

Untitled by Sparrow69, literature

Literature

Untitled

I thought i was getting better i dont know how else to put it these spells of sadness were diminishing into almost non-existence home is where the heart is my heart is nowhere to be found i have no home confused tired to sad to cry to angry to think to shocked to feel i hear the party my friends around me i feel like screaming but i cant bad people everywhere i go im like a magnet to them i welcome them they cross the line wherever i go no matter how smart i am i always succumb to the madness the hurt it causes me kills me i live with it cant tell anybody wont tell anybody no questions no answers no talking just b

Haunted by Sparrow69, literature

Literature

Haunted

When does it end? When the screaming finally stops, and you can see clearly through the veil of tears? When you start to run your own life again, not the other way around? Truth balled up tightly in my fist A secret Forever a secret I can't share Caught in the middle and I don't dare open my palm for all to see The truth is ugly, they think The lies are comfortable It is what they all want Who am I to think differently? Who am I at all? I wish I could fling the truth into the deepest part of the sea lost...gone But I know one day... one day as I walk along the seashore, The truth will reach out and swirl around my ankle

I Hate this by Sparrow69, literature

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I Hate this

We are supposed to be best friends We shouldn't be fighting I need you I'm sorry We are acting like stubborn children and it has to stop I don't hate you I care about you so much And You scare the hell out of me I hate the way you look at me You look at me like I am a delicate doll that will break if you squeeze it too hard Get over whatever it is that is making you hide from me I want you to talk to me I want us to go back to the way we were before all of this stupid crap I don't need space I need you I know you think that I don't care but I do I am always listening even if you think I'm not Its just that mostly, you don't sa

Shooting Star by Sparrow69, literature

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Shooting Star

Lyin' on the ground, starin' at the sky I don't see nothing I'm tryin' to be blind I just see fire I feel the flame I see the future and it won't change a single thing I say, a single thing I do, I do... Watch me burn like a shooting star You never thought I'd get this far Turn to dust in the atmosphere, don't you blink I might disappear Like a shooting star watch me disappear watch me disappear... Watch me burn like a shooting star You never thought I'd get this far Turn to dust in the atmosphere, don't you blink I might disappear... Like a shooting star watch me disappear watch me disappear...

Don't You Dare by Sparrow69, literature

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Don't You Dare

Dark clouds moving in Just one fall of rain would wash away wash away the pain Just one rey of sun to warm my skin and rid me of the clutch you're drowning in I could say that I don't care but the truth is I'd follow you anywhere I've been waiting such a long, long time... Don't ou dare change your mind You seem so close to me but still beyond my reach calling me and playing hide and seek Look behind that door, I'm the one you've been searching for and I'm not a little girl anymore I could say that I don't care... but the truth is I'd follow you anywhere I've been waiting such a long long time... Don't you dare change

Numb by Sparrow69, literature

Literature

Numb

its a lie the people you think you can trust peircing pain silver point coming through your chest stabbed in the back all of you starts dripping away love secrets hate emotion of any kind its all in the past now your life flashes before your eyes cold it feels so cold eyes are glazing over you feel nothing completely numb and now slipping away from the world love its a joke hate its real depression pain numbing anguish black no light everything is going dark crying laughing someone stands before you smiling down and laughind their hands covered with red blood your blood my blood everything i thought eve

Rip by Sparrow69, literature

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Rip

Three there were three of them one was not an option I cut him down then there were two both people i love both people who are amazing and love me rip my heart it beats for two who do i choose? rip my brain constantly thinking about him about him, too he is so wonderful dark twisted vicious loving passion so very protective jealous anger wells inside me whenever i see him yet i can't stay mad at him he reads me so well when something is bothering me, all he has to do is look into my eyes and somehow he always knows i laugh instead of cry he calls me out on it pushes my hair back and lifts my chin he finds me w

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Please by ace-of-hearts-4-luv, literature

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Please

Save me Take me away Away from these poisoned memories and feelings that hold on to me Grip with an unfathomable determination Take me Into your arms Arms where I may feel something other then pain Frozen it hurts so much, clawing tearing from the inside out Into your arms I fall Fall without a care, sky diver decending without the worry of harsh ground Without fear I would plumet into you, splash and sink forever in your sea Please Save me Take me away Into your arms I fall

Be Wary by ace-of-hearts-4-luv, literature

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Be Wary

Be wary For your shadow may fall on a dream Stay cautious For the dream will turn, nightmare Be wary That each moment a clock ticks, second pass and you are closer to the end Be cautious That time is not wasted or ignored, live without regret take it all in Watch As clouds float by like people Listen As people float by like memoires in a sea Watch While waves crash on white sand Listen And the sound will slowly drive you to sleep Love With all your heart, and maybe I'll give you mine Long For love, and never let it slip away Love You, Long For you, Listen To your every word, Watch How you hurt me, Be cautious Of m

Lobotomize Me by dnmph, literature

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Lobotomize Me

I want to be free from me, to lose myself in another I want to sleep the days away, spend them curled in your arms I want to fly where we cannot be touched, and forget all that is below us I want to be in love, and I want you to too. I wanna be put to sleep I wanna be set free I want you baby to lobotomize me. I wanna be sent to hell And I wanna take you with me I want you baby to lobotomize me. I want to feel No, numb me down Help me heal No, let me drown. Free me Let me lose myself in another I want you baby Lobotomize me

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I live in Northern California but i was born in Southern California.I have the greaest friends in the world and am happpiest when I am with them.Purple is my FAVORITE color.I like to chase squirrels and I am deathly afraid of geese.I am the lead singer in a band and am involved in the drama and culinary clubs at my high school.My dream is to live in London,England someday very soon.

Current Residence: Somewhere over the Rainbow
Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Rock
Favourite photographer: Josie Wilson
Favourite style of art: i like it all
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Shell of choice: Abolone
Wallpaper of choice: Bam Margera
Skin of choice: no preference
Favourite cartoon character: Grr
Personal Quote: "Dorothy and Toto jumped over the rainbow to BLOW OFF Auntie Em!!!!!!!!!!"

Favourite Visual Artist

Noah Wilson

Favourite Movies

Benny and Joon

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Red Jumpsuit Apparaus, Evanescence, The Ramones, The Rolling Stones,Led Zepplin

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe

Favourite Games

Hide & Seek

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computer

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Charcoal, Pencil, Pen, Me

Other Interests

singing, sketching, dancing, swimming, surfing, skateboarding, writing poetry/songs, laughing

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Sparrow69

Oct 7, 2009

Weather

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I really don't like the cold weather. Winter SUCKS! i am so used to it being summer all year round and now i get cold when the temp drops below 85.If this were happening to some other person i would totally laugh.For me this can only me one thing. Its time for me to go.........SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D warm clothes here i come

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Sparrow69

Jul 29, 2009

Always Moving

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Been taking care of myself and getting better every day.Made a nice life here but its time to move on. San Diego is great but its time for a change of scenery again.This time the change is gonna be farther away from Nor Cal. To all my friends I say hi and I miss you all. Will be back soon...maybe.

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Sparrow69

Jul 28, 2009

Its All You'll Get

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Are you okay? im fine Whats wrong? im fine. What's going on with you? im. fine. How are you feeling? Im fine Are you crying? I'm fine Why do you have that look on your face? I'm Fine Do you need to talk? IM FINE Do you want to talk? IM FINE. Is there something I can do? IM FINE! ...im fine

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Zazwicks

Jan 15, 2009

Thanks for the fave! (as you see, I am breaking the mold by writing fave instead of fav). And I must say––honestly and from my heart––that your journal entry poem struck me remarkably. I had to sort of mentally shake my head to realize that it was actually someone else writing the words, not just the words of the thoughts that constantly flash before the darkness of my closèd eyes. It spoke to me. It really did. I am impressed. Congrats.